I was going to not bother with the capitals and all when writing for myself, but I feel that doesn't encourage what I'm attempting to do here. I have to reinforce it myself as well, especially since HE isn't physically here.
Oh for the day HE is though...to feel HIS touch for the first time. Right now I would probably precum and melt into HIM.
Aleistar Crowley was rumored to be able to cause an entire room of people to spontaneously orgasm all at once. I don't know about that, but I want to one day be so connected to my DOM that I can do so at HIS command. Wow to be that close, to be that vulnerable, so open and yet so strong and amazing together.
Only time will tell. :)
It will also be interesting to see how else HE can train me. HE has that background in sexual psychology; that makes me trust HIM beyond anyone else. It appeals to the nerdy side of me that simultaneously appreciates and needs to know that a DOM is aware of what HE is doing...especially since I may not always be.
I always felt like there must be something all these Ds people knew that they weren't sharing. I think I'm beginning to get an idea what T/they wouldn't teach me outright, and I think I understand why I had to learn it myself. Maybe everyone does. Being OWNED by HIM is the test of this hypothesis and a catalytic opportunity to develop myself. How could I pass this up?!
I already can hardly help whimpering just seeing the videos where HE is rough and then tender. My boypussy twitches at the thought of HIM.
I realized a long time ago that my best relationships always had a little fight in them. When the fight is over, so long as W/we still want to keep going together I consider both of Us as having won. Especially with a guy like HIM, if HE is still my DOM, even if I lose, I fuckin win. Bigtime. :)
I wonder how HE describes this stage of Our relationship. I don't know the terms and don't want to assume anything.
(Did a quick spiritual thing tonight for what's been on my mind.)
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